Just sleeping...

And the time stops…

I close my eyes…

An endless dream takes me away…

I don’t want to wake up anymore if the reality is able to make me cry.

I even don’t know any more if it’s worth continuing like this: semi-awoken, out of the air…

Running away from the reality,

Living an impossible dream to let to be just a dream,

I don’t hope for a happy future.

Lost!

Again, sadness hurts in my being.

I don’t know what to say,

I don’t know what to do.

I look inside myself; 
I look for the answers that seem they don’t exist.

Endless interrogations don’t let me sleep…

Everything passes, everything changes…

But I continue here.

It seems the time doesn’t pass to me…

I find myself in a lost time, far away…

I try to find myself but I can’t recognize myself any more:

Deeply in myself I’m lost.

Unforgettable!

While the time passes, I stay here looking to the nothing that’s inside me.

Everything is so graceless since you had to leave.

And now, I think about what was left behind and you can’t come back… This makes me suffer more and more…

I’ve tried to find you wherever I go…

Memories make me cry.

I look to the sky and I can imagine you in that star that insists on shining…

I know you’ll be in every place with me… It was always like that and it’ll be always like that…

You’ll be eternally in my mind, in my heart.

Glad or sad moments: you have always been with me.

You’re simply an immortal and unforgettable person.

Unable

Sometimes I feel so just unable…

It’s when I look around I realize something is wrong but I can’t do so much to make it better.

It’s sad the waking up when the reality even doesn’t let us dream and it makes us cry.

I feel just unable when I look behind and I see how many mistakes…

Today I feel just unable and I get desperate about that.

I feel completely unable when I don’t believe that someday there’ll be finally and eternally that so idealized peace in this world.

I feel especially unable…

But it doesn’t matter anymore!

Today I feel unable.

Tomorrow is other day… Tomorrow I don’t want to look behind!

But it has not got the tomorrow yet…

It’s still today!

And today, I’m just someone who feels unable.

Today I feel unable.

Nothing more!

A tear

A tear fell from my look…
A tear that made me get on real…
A tear of sadness and missing at the same time…
A tear fell when I thought about the possibility of never again find you...Time passes, things change but the love I feel will go on…
Time’s not able to erase the love…
Even after death:
Love will become eternal day after day.
A tear fell and from my look will always fall a tear every time I remember you’re so far away, in other horizon…
A tear will fall from my look because I’ll never let of loving you.
This eternal missing will torment me forever and ever.
And, how much I try on… I’ll never be used to live without you…
Without you here the world seems to fall down…
Without you here I’ll never be completely happy.
Today a tear fell from my look.

Just thinking a little

Just thinking a little…
So fast I could see the sun disappears
Giving place to the darkest darkness
Of the emptiness that is done in my heart.
I know the sun has to go away,
Nothing is in vain.
There are things that just now I can understand.
There’s always some reason although we think the contrary…
Sometimes, it seems the sky will fall down
And the rain will be eternal…
The time stops and the darkness seems to be endless
But there’s a star that’s shining non-stop.
When everything seems so over, it’s just the restarting of something that was wrong.
It’s so hard to look behind when the frightened of realizing that maybe everything was built on a mistake of believing on illusion causes the regretting…
The single thing I’ll have to do is go ahead cause it can’t erase or forget what was left behind…
I’m going living the false “by chances” that are proportioned at each born and reborn of the sun,
The rain I see falls,

Each star I realize shining so strong when the darkness seems to be eternal.
I feel the wind touches me, I let it take me to any place where I can find myself and realize that finally I’m part of that place…
It’s thoughts that come and go… life happens by chance without so many explanations…
I’ll continue here, looking for the answers that maybe I’ll never have.

Dreaming…

Dreaming is necessary even if everything seems so wrong…
Believing in dreams is the first step…
Once time I had forgotten that I have to believe in my dreams but thank God I’ve realized that it’s not worth living without dreaming. Now I can say I believe in myself and nothing will ever change this! I don’t know if my dreams are possible to become true but I won’t give up about them.
Never, no way, ever I’ll doubt and underestimate the power of : ‘I’d like that’. I just live every day of my life… that’s it.
And this is just one more observation of mine.